I have been wanting to write about this for
quite awhile now, but I have not really been able to find the words…
Honestly, I am still not sure I have the
words even now…but maybe that’s my problem sometimes…I just always want to wait
for the perfect words…but, I am not
always going to be able to have the luxury of waiting for these “perfect words”
and there will be (and have been) times where I just have to say what I think
right then and there…because if I don’t say it right then and there, then when
WILL I say them….if ever?
If there were ever a time where I wished I
had eloquent words, it would definitely be right now.
I could imagine I feel kind of like Moses
lately…only my problem is not difficulty in finding the right words when talking
to people (well…that is always a problem of mine) but my problem lately is
finding words adequate enough to express my gratitude towards God for
everything that He is doing in my life…and finding even one word that could
even come close to BRUSHING how in awe I am of Him.
There have been so many times in the past
five months where something has happened and the only thing I could do in that
moment was just stand frozen in place…unable to even utter a simple “thank you”
to God…because I know those two words do not even come close to my gratitude.
For the sake of sounding like a Taylor Swift
song…my life lately…definitely could resemble a fairytale. It has it bumps and
bruises and ups and downs, sure…but I have absolutely nothing to complain about
because God is allowing me to see Him work in ways that I have never even
dreamed of before.
In just these past five months God has taken
my life and turned it completely upside down…I have written and taught my own
bible study lesson (something I have prayed about doing and have wanted to do
for years), I gained an incredible mentor (the SAME PERSON I have prayed about
being my mentor for a few years), and now I am waiting on a start date for my dream
job (a job that represents everything I have wanted to do pretty much)!!!
But those are just three of the main things
that have happened. I have seen God work in so many ways. I have seen Him bring
people into my life that I have prayed over for quite awhile and I have seen
Him knit together amazing relationships. I have seen Him take what seem to be sticky situations and turn them into
incredible opportunities. And I have seen Him orchestrate circumstances out of
(what seems to be like) thin air…and work in ways that not even the most clever
of storywriters could come up with.
I really don’t know why God works the way He does – or why He would want to use me the way He does…
And all the while I am just standing here in
utter awe. Even my mind becomes frozen at times…because God TRULY IS GOOD and
His goodness is far greater than anything the human mind can fathom.
I am so excited to see what God is going to
do in these next seven months…
I know I am going to be challenged in ways
that I have never experienced before…but I also know that God is going to work
in miraculous ways…
And my prayer is that I never stop telling Him “thank you” for all He does…even if I know
that a simple “thank you” does not even come close to the gratitude and astonishment
I truly feel…
I guess these are times when I can just rest
in the peace that He knows my heart and He knows the words my heart is
searching for…
Come on, my soul
Come on, my soul
Let down the walls
And sing, my soul
Come on, Come on, Come on, Come on
It’s time to look up
Come on, my soul
Come on, my soul
Let down the walls
And sing, my soul
(Come On by
Rend Collective)
