I officially suck.
I wont even try to make excuses for my
letdown.
“Things I am thankful for”
well…I am thankful for all the things in my
life that keep me SO busy…even though that does cause me to sometimes sacrifice
other things that I enjoy…like blogging…I am sorry…
I could just say forget it and move on from
that whole idea...especially because November is over. But tonight I was
reminded of so many things that I am thankful for. So no way.
So here we go…16-30…I’ll make this short and
sweet!
16:
Music…because for some reason, things are
just better said/understood in a song.
17:
Tears. Because sometimes a girl just needs to
sit down and have a good cry session! (I had me a pretty good one tonight)
There is just something so freeing about crying…like – I am a lighter person
afterwards…
18:
TRUTH. I may have already gone over this in
some form…but tonight I was really reminded how thankful I am that I am able to
LIVE in truth in my life. Not just because I know that I have Christ and He IS
TRUTH…but because of that – I am free to live in the truth of everything else.
My feelings, emotions, fears, doubts, hopes…and so on and so forth. I am able
to be COMPLETELY and utterly honest with myself and God about how I feel
because I know that ultimately HE is in control of my life. Not me! My fears
are not in control…my doubts are not in control…sure at times they might feel
like they are…but Christ has given me an out from that.
I know people who – honestly – each time I am
with them and they are talking…I have to keep asking myself if what they are
saying is the truth or a lie. And I have to constantly keep reminding myself to
take what they are saying with a grain of salt.
But a life of TRUTH. To live in such a way
that is above reproach. There is nothing more free. Because some people are
just too insecure and crippled by their fears to live in the truth that is
their life. But not me. Tonight I was reminded that no matter how much it
hurts…I am actively choosing to live a life of honesty, genuineness, and TRUTH
over a life of lies and fiction. Because no matter what – I want to be TRUE to
who I am and what I know is right. No matter how I am feeling.
And with that being said…# Nineteen:
The ability to see beyond my present state.
Twenty:
Good health.
21:
People with absolute gumption who just don’t
give a rip! Who will stand up for what they know to be right.
22:
Creation and natural revelation – there is
NOTHING like seeing the beauty of creation and knowing that you get to spend
every second of your life with the One who made it.
23:
Choices. The ability to know and choose right
from wrong. Yes…most of the time I do wish I was just wired to be perfect and
automatically choose what’s right. But I am thankful for the times where I am
able to sit there and look at both sides and know why I am choosing what I am
choosing…and know why something is RIGHT…
24:
JACKETS!!!! Haha random I know….but with it
being winter and cold weather…I am just so thankful for jackets! I love big
comfy coats that keep me comfortable and warm…
25:
Stability.
26:
The rain! I truly believe there is nothing
more romantic in the world than rain…and I believe that every time it rains –
God is thinking of me…just because He knows how much I love it haha…
27:
Opportunities in life.
28:
Surprises. I used to think that I hated
surprises – and of course…no one really likes a bad surprise…haha…but just
unexpected things in life…sort of like the kisses from God that I mentioned in
an earlier post…but perhaps somewhat different…just waking up thinking that the
day is going to go one way…but something happens and it ends up twisting into
something completely different.
That thought truly keeps me positive at
times…that no matter what it may be – my present state is not permanent. And I
never know what is going to happen next.
29:
Community. I know I talked about family and
friends and the high school and junior high students…but just community in
general…the people who I wouldn’t typically place under the other
categories…but who are still there…who live and breathe and believe the same
what I do…
Thirty:
A happy heart. I don’t even think the word “happy”
is good enough…a heart at peace?
I don’t know. I’m lacking the perfect word
right now. All I know is whatever it is considered…I am filled with it. I wish I
could expand further on it all – maybe another time…but I guess what I can
leave you with – is that God is SO good. He is above us in every way possible. And
He loves us and always has and wants the best for us. All we have to do is give
Him all the crap that weighs us down. I know it sounds difficult…and trust me…it
is a never-ending, daily struggle…but right now – in this moment – I know I am
so blessed…and God has filled my heart and my life with more love than I ever
thought possible…
I can hurt – but I can know He is holding me
through it all…
He gives me everything I never think to need
or ask for…
and I am SO thankful for that.
